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Nikole
Thursday, February 21 2008
Jokingly - i said to my mother "sorry, im broken" last night.and we got talking and she told me that sometimes she feels broken,cause she pushes us too hard, and that she doesn't ever feel like she fits in. i told her lightly that its hard to be who YOU are because you are a puzzle, peiced together by the people you meet... Read more
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Nikole
Wednesday, February 13 2008
Today was a national campaign to raise awarness of teenage depression and suicide, where we were to write love on our arms, and pass it along. except, in amounst all the cyansisim(sp?) of my life, i realized..love fades as the sharpie wore off, what a lesson. its was so weird, writing love across the arm i have defaced with scars and... Read more
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Nikole
Saturday, February 09 2008
Isn't it funny, how people can treat you like dirt, and in fact call you things like exactly that...and not even know, not even know the damage they cause? nobodys perfect, god knows...but reminding me every thirty ******* seconds doesnt help me.its especaily funny when the people "closest" to you dont notice a thing. Don't... Read more
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Nikole
Monday, February 04 2008
Today, i had the perfect oppertunity to cut myself and i felt such a need but,as i opened my jewelery bo i saw the razor i had hidden in there, and just closed it and walked away. i was very proud of myself, but as i sit here i have to hold myself back from getting up and resorting to the comfort it brings... i know to an extent why i do it... Read more