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Health Interests

depression, suicidal thoughts, fibromyalgia, diabetes

Drugs I am Taking

Zoloft, Trazodone

About Me

I have fought depression all of my life. I remember when I was just a little girl how I would feel during certain times. I can look back and realize that those feelings were symptoms of depression. I have been diagnosed with severe depression, and moderate anxiety disorder.

The things that I deal with in everyday life are even harder to cope with when I have other health issues that complicate the whole picture.

Just in the past 10 years I have lost both of my parents 20 days apart, lost a grandmother, 2 uncles, been thru a divorce, been in trouble with the law, been homeless, had a miscarriage, and had 2 of my favorite cats die in my arms. But most of all and most painful is that I lost my daughter. She moved across the country to live with her father. She wont speak to me or have anything to do with me at all. This may sound horrible. But its almost worse than if she had died. If she had died, then I would have some sort of closure.  Is it wrong to think like that?

I really hate when people look at me and ask how I can be so depressed when I have such a good life going for me now. They just dont know.

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