Sunday, March 20, 2011
hi everbody
Ive reached my character minimum today
so that means I have enough character
which reminds me of what someone said that I acted weird in school
I didnt take that well
I have read some shareposts
Im finding it hard to justify my beliefs
even if they are right
Im not understanding where im at
Part of wants to stop the pain,Another part just wants to rest
I had an anger spell yesterday
Then i felt guilty for the anger
If I make any sense thats a good thing
Had a friend come over
I didnt enjoy it
Someone said friends come and go
well theyre right
I gained alot of weight over the winter
About 30 -40 pounds
Just trying to make sense of it all
Jon
Hi, Jon. What you said about feeling guilty about being angry makes perfect sense because I do the same thing. For me, I think it was because I was punished for displaying any anger but it was okay for my parents to go on rampages, so sometimes I still am waiting for the punishment. I've been told that we can possibly take on the guilt of others if they can get away with bad behavior without any consequences - sort of like taking on the guilt of the world, so to speak.
You probably know more than you think you do.