losing myself

By jpw2008 Monday, April 11, 2011

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I feel lost today,Like the world swallowed me alive

I feel like the piece missing is getting bigger

Im not sure I can relate to the world we live in

I ate out today the only positive thing i can say

I sit in front of the computer a lot

I do go out of the house

Im still not comfortable doing this by myself

I feel like its a handicap

Its confusing for me to understand

How i get stress out over it

Jon

uninspired

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Paul

4/11/11 10:44pm

Jon, you made quite a touching comment on the post before yours. It has been a long time since I thought like that.

You made me think.

It's good sometimes, that you sit in front of that computer.

Donna-1

4/12/11 7:56am

You expressed yourself very eloquently. I know exactly what you are talking about from the way you described depression. The missing piece getting bigger. That is how I felt, too. Know that you are not alone, Jon. I wish I could let you know how important you are to this site as a spokesman for those of us with depression.

Marishka

4/12/11 9:57am

Hi Jon,

I often feel this way. Not able to relate to the world we live in. I often feel a desperation for the world to be different, to be kinder, gentler, for people to be nicer, happier, better. And sometimes I just feel despair, as I cannot change the world. It is how it is.

And that, for me, is hard to accept. The only thing I can do is change myself, my thinking, my outlook, my perspective, and look for the parts of the world that I like and that feel good to me, the gentle, loving, kind parts.

I have this struggle over and over as I look inside and outside and get dissapointed that the world is not how I would like it, people and situations are not how I would like them to be. Or how I think I would create a world if I could.

Continually, I, others and the world seem to fall short of what I think 'should' be. For me, it 'should' be a world in which we are all happy, live in harmony and love, no pain, no suffering, no death, everyone happy.

I just want it this way so badly but realize I can only control my own little piece and try to do that as best as I can.

Marishka

Merely Me, Health Guide

4/13/11 6:48pm

Hey Jon

Haven't seen you on the site in awhile. I am glad you came on to write a post. I think a lot of us can relate to what you are saying. There are many days I feel like I don't see the light of day except what comes in through my window. It can make you feel buggy after awhile.

I am glad that you are getting out even if it is just to go to a restaurant. Did you enjoy the food?

Keep on writing...we miss you when you don't write.

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