Hi, Jon.  I'm sorry that you're only feeling emptiness right now.  Did something in particular happen to cause you to lose your will to live?  Yes, life is a mystery for all of us and I've found that it can't be solved while being numb.  And maybe it's not intended for us to solve all of the mystery in this lifetime; I think knowledge is unfolded to us in its own time, we will learn what we need to when the time is right.  Part of it is keeping yourself open to learning about and understanding yourself.  It sounds like it might be important right now for you to make ourself get out of the house, at least once a day.  It changes your environment and can change your perspective.  We are just a small part of the universe, but a very important part.  Even if you don't believe it, you are important to people, maybe even to people you don't know.  I realize that it's a hard thing to take in sometimes, but it's the truth.

Please write some more about what's happening with you lately and why you are losing hope.  We do care, really.

jpw2008

9/30/09 8:07am

The sirens with there faces wet

Theseus and zeus at olympus

Jon

jpw2008

11/29/09 10:15am

hi Judy

I visited my friend who died.

I was upset she didnt have a head stone

I felt that was the way I was going to be too

I thought I would have no headstone

All she had was flowers

Her family didn't care for her

Jon