My story is that I moved a long way away from my family 8 years ago. I became very depressed and was on medication. I sought help from some Christian people who prayed for me. God took me back to the time when I was first born. I live in England. I was born at the end of November in 1946. This was the coldest winter on record here. The temperature was below freezing for more than 3 months. It was also just after the second world war and there was no central heating and coal was on ration. In order to keep me warm, my parents put me in the smallest room in the house and burnt all their coal ration in keeping a fire going for me 24 hours a day. This was very kind of them except that it fed into my baby mind that I was abandoned, spending far too much time alone detached from my parents. When God (who is eternal!) took me back in my memory to that situation I engaged with the pain of it and sobbed my heart out. That was painful but afterwards the pain was gone and the depression that went with it.

You see we work by association. A friend of mine has a dog which will not allow me to stroke it. This dog was beaten by its first owner, a man, this planted fear of men in its memory. It now has a negative emotion, fear, and has believed the lie that will be abused by any man who gets near it. We are wired up the same way! What is going on in the present echoes back to some negative experience in our past and we get a double whammie of pain and feel depressed.

Another friend of mine who lives in the US was due to be coming to see me over here. He has a little dog who he dotes on. He is a multi millionaire business man. He bought the tickets to come over but then the dog fell ill and was expected to die. He e-mailed me to tell me about the dog. Three days later he called to say that for 3 days he had come into his office, locked the door, turned off the computer and the phone and sobbed his heart out! He wanted to know what was wrong with him! I told him he was experiencing over again the sense of abandonment he felt when his mother died when he was 10. He is now 70! Do you get my gist?

People who could help you can be found at Elijah House, Ellel Ministries or Pastoral Care Ministries. Look up their web sites.

Why go on medicating the pain when you can be rid of it?!! Jesus heals today just like he always did!

                                       God bless you,

                                                          Graham.