1. On a scale of 1-10 how would you rate your week? My week was about a 3.5.
2. What were the challenges you faced this week with regard to your mood?
For some reason, I just didn't feel well mentally this week. I think it has to do with expectations. Expecting too much of myself. Feeling like a failure. I feel like since I can't work, I ought to be doing something of value, and this week was a zero doing-wise.
3. Were there any good moments? Tell us the good stuff, we would love to hear it! Good...? I managed to get basic stuff done and stay out of bed during the day except for my daily nap.
4. What are your plans for the weekend? Are you doing anything fun? My sister is picking me and my mom up to go for Mexican food tomorrow noon. We are celebrating Mother's Day. I told my sis I will pay half because I haven't gotten out to get Mom anything yet. My niece, her husband, and their child will be there as well as my nephew. The baby will be the highlight of the trip -- she is about 18 months old and into everything. It is a kind of expensive place and I'm low on cash, as usual. But what the heck, Mother's Day only happens once a year, right?
Hi y'all,
My week was a little more difficult than some, pretty much just an attitude issue.
I had a chance to meet why my psychiatrist- that's always an up. She said, ironically, a lot of people who have depression have a harder time in May and Oct.
She said statistics bear that out, but there is no explanation- except the ones we supply here!! It sounds like an inertia thing to me: when you are full of sludge, it takes a little longer to catch up to the seasonal changes. I'm sorry your week was rough, Donna1. Half the battle is staying out of bed, somtimes. Pat yourself on the back.
Ric
Guess I'm not the only one!!
(I apologize in advance I don't know how to explain this without possible offense)
Just yesterday I was walking under a freeway overpass and these 2 girls were walking my way joking about how dark it was under there. One laughs and says to me "hey, bro! don't rape me under this bridge!" I almost froze before realizing they were joking and laughed with them. I think they were high or something.
I've also been walking down the street and had random people I don't know wave at me or yell YO! at me. In my apparent alternate life where these people know me I wonder what kind of person I am?? Huh, best not to dwell on it I suppose.
I know that feeling of being in the twilight zone!!! Sometimes it really sucks.
Aside from feeling like maybe I looked like a criminal yesterday after returning from my walk. Was a pretty good week. I got to hang out with my best friend. We went to the beach and climbed a few steep grades. My legs hurt today but that's from the beach and walking 6 miles in the last 2 days :)
I'd give it like an 8. It wasn't perfect but it was a lot better than most of my weeks..
Haven't had anything that weird happen to me this week, but that's okay! I don't even know how I'd rate this past week, think I'm still recovering from last week-end. It was fun doing the shows - in between, people were clowning around and joking, which helps relieve the tension a bit. They have it on our local cable channel and after about ten minutes of watching it, I couldn't stand looking at myself any more! Like someone else said, "I don't watch because it shatters my fantasy of looking perfect." Or something to that effect.
I hope all the mothers out there have a great Mother's Day. I'm wondering, do other mothers with sons find that they often don't even get a card from their sons? I did get an e-card from one of them, but the other one.....guess he has a lot of things on his mind. And it's not that I even really care about a card or about the day itself - it's just a commercial thing invented by the card companies to make money. But it's not uncommon to also not get birthday cards (my husband doesn't get them, either), so I'm wondering what's up with that when we're always ready to help out where we can when they need something. In a way, I guess I could look at it as maybe an indication that they don't feel the need to just do things to keep themselves in my good graces because they know I'll love them no matter what. They obviously don't have any guilt trips they're on, which is more than I can say for myself, LOL.
Have a great week-end, everybody.
1. On a scale of 1-10 how would you rate your week? About a 7... though right now I'm not doing so good. I'm angry.
2. What were the challenges you faced this week with regard to your mood? People cancelling on my birthday plans left right and frelling centre. Most of them know I haven't so much as acknowledged this date for years, though they might not quite get the significance. Whatever it has gotten on my goat a bit. Especially the friend who insisted I should do something and promised that she, at least, would come - but has cancelled. Or the friend who begged me to have it in her area (though for me to get to the city it takes an hour or so) and now she has cancelled too even though I am holding it at the place she wanted. Another friend I had to cancel going to his party earlier in the year because I got too mentally ill to socialise (he is someone, I might add, who has had stints in mental hospitals for depression so surely he should get it), I cancelled on the day before his night cause I wanted to try and go but it was too much - then this morning I get a message from him saying he 'forgot' he had tickets for a gig tonight... yeah friggin right. And my younger brother went out and got drunk last night so doesn't feel up to going out tonight - he never wanted to come in the friggin first place, SO sorry I bloody well tried to force you to come and celebrate with your only friggin sister who is always there for you. Oh and the friend from Canberra has cancelled too - in his case he went to the doctors with a rash and found he had a virus so its understandable but on top of everything else!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3. Were there any good moments? Tell us the good stuff, we would love to hear it! I have a second date planned with a guy on Monday (and we had our first date the Monday just gone which was really nice). I think someone I used to go to group therapy with years ago (and haven't seen for almost as many years) is coming tonight so that should be good.
4. What are your plans for the weekend? Are you doing anything fun? My birthday party tonight - though right now I don't really want to go because I'm so angry. Still, there are others who are coming, I should be grateful and happy and enjoy time with them... right? Just gotta stop feeling so damn mad. Easier said than done.
week 4
challenges:
freeway noise in home, unbearable....torture...why if we know that noise in the home is torture, am I once again in a torture filled home for me? I don't really understand how this works...
but if all goes as planned, I will have a soundproof window within a month and then move when I can to a quiet home.
next week, plans to go biking with my old tennis buddy, who happens to be from the same small town as the guy I met who is a naturalist and tour guide to Mexico and Latin America! coincidence??? I really don't get this world..
and all I want more than anything in the world right now is place of quiet at home to rest my body...I am SO sick from the noise I am going to pass out..
Forgot the questions..again..oh weekend, hopefully go to the mountain all day tomorrow. then, tennis Sunday morning.
why does changing life for the better take so long? why can't we just jump to something better? I am confused...
Marishka
Im getting tired of it ....dont know what to do anymore. Im male 31 from Malta. Ive been suffering like this for 5 years. My symptoms are sadness mostly all the time, crying for nothing, feeling anxious, cannot concentrate or focus , my vision seems dull, have issues of depersonalazation, insomnia on and off, my head feels heavy:(... I tried many different treatments . Now im going to try acupunture and the food intollerance test ... dont know what to do anymore....Im afraid if I stay like this.......
Gil:(
Have you ever had a day like this? Wow, MM...what an awful experience. I am so untrusting of people. It sounds like such a terrible scam to me. I have seen (but not been involved) in a couple of situations like this at Wal-mart when people are trying to scam for a settlement when they have supposedly fallen and hurt themselves. One of these people I actually saw later at another store right after her big event, and she was laughing and fine. It also reminds me of the people who hold up signs at stop lights/corners who say they are stranded and need $ or homeless and need work. I have a friend who is in a band, who says she sees these people in the evenings at the bars buying the house a round with loads of money and overindulging themselves. What a scam. I don't understand how these people can live with themselves doing these things. They must not have a conscience at all!
My week has been one of anticipating and trying to ward off an oncoming depression. You know how you can feel yourself getting into that "Funk"? I can feel it. I don't know how to explain it. I guess those of us who have battled depression for years can just feel when we are going down into the darkness. I have spent my week trying to keep myself from falling to awfully low. I know that a certain amount of "down time" is ok, but I just don't want to fall into one of my really low, dark places.
1. On a scale of 1-10 how would you rate your week? I would go with a 4. I have spent most of my energy trying to keep myself up and going. It is exhausting sometimes.
2. What were the challenges you faced this week with regard to your mood? I have had this oncoming feeling of a dark depressive episode. I hate these times, and I am trying desperately to not go there!
3. Were there any good moments? Not really any good moments. I've just been playing defense against depressions dark depths.
4. What are your plans for the weekend? Are you doing anything fun? I am working all weekend. I am planning to just give myself some "Me Time" on my days off to regroup and overcome. I have been looking up info. on Tibetan Meditation. I am going to try it. I am hoping to get my inner self realigned somewhat, I hope. It is just beginning to green up and turn into spring here in Idaho and I would really like to get out and enjoy some of the warmer weather, the sunshine (which is so, so uplifting for me) and maybe play in the yard some.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL THE MUM'S!!! 
week 5
It turned out better than it started for sure.
I think the reason is that on Saturday, I spent the entire day at the mountain. I have not done that for years and years. For whatever reason, I just have not done it and it is my favorite thing in the world...well Lucy my cat and some other things are too...:)
Laying on a rock, listening to the rushing water , closing my eyes, or looking at what is in the cold pools of water and playing with things in there :)
crawling along the stream...
Found twigs with little critters inside 'walking' along the bottom....
other little things...
smiled as a three year old boy delighted in his experience of walking in the stream with his grandma
It was absolutely wonderful....then I encountered a lady who had gone just a bit farther than I had down the stream...
she was wearing a sun hat, red lipstick and nail polish, had some summery clothes and skirt ...not the typical attire up there on the mountain...and she did not seem to care in the least which I delighted in...sometimes I have found myself in attire that others may wonder about and I delight if I am so a peace I don't care...she seemed extremely at peace....and was just sitting under the small bushes at another running water part in the stream...quiet....peaceful....
She had the most gentle energy unlike people in the city.... quiet like a deer, like me... when I am not raging in anger :)
and I just felt so glad to remember that there are gentle spirits out there like me....who sit in silence and are like a lizard on a rock....just have to drive an hour up a mountain, crawl downstream away from all the people and cars, and eventually find them...:)
The water was absolutely beautiful....I will go back as much as I can this summer...
challenges....
clearing my head...finally did after the mountain and tennis and ativan and cats and tea and meditation and silence up at the mountain two nights in a row...
I think 5 hours of tennis is good for me :) I feel a bit better than usual although it is the middle of the night and I am up typing...:)
For the life of me, I cannot remember 5 questions after I go to this page to type...!:)
oh yeah, strange experiences...yes, I had one last week...I know what you are talking about MM....
but this is long so I'll save it...
Marishka
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Hahaha... OMG Merely Me I'm so sorry, what an awful day you had. I've had a similar credit card thing & it does make you feeel like a crim! As a psychologist I suspect the woman was probably having an hysterical thing, not very clinical I know :) I'll write more later got to go to help a protegee of mind at uni do an assignment. You need to keep your oomph up x
Ciao