Free Falling Friday!

Hi Merely Me, I havent seen the Soloist yet but am looking forward to doing so.

I think its really cathartic when you can cry your eyes out and connect your own experience.  Its hard to love somebody whose been so damaged and full of fear that theyve 'gone indoors' for good. You cant change, you cant connect, you can only be there and love them. I'm glad you liked the Film.

Your questions?  On a Scale of 1 to 10. this week has to be a 5.

Im really feeling the withdrawals from the AntiD i'm coming off  [known of being the hardest] and next Tuesday I then introduce [under shrinks guidance] a small dose of a different SSRI and hopefully that will help

The reason Its 5   is naturally because I'm going thru head zaps, electric shocks in my head, vertigo, crying outbursts and anxiety etc.  Still Im here, writing on your site.  The Best thing I did this week was to just decide not to go on websites about coming off the particular Drug Im on as one can become too caught up in the whole thing and sometimes reading all the things that I have to go through just makes me worse .Were all different.

The kindest best thing this week I did for myself was to take time out from the real world to get my Head together and take naps and go for walks whilst going through this alone.   Also I got some uplifting dvds and Im watching comedy station. Its time for OStritch syndrome therapy, Im not reading about the awful global issues and economy, Im taking a break from it as I get off these tabs and next week try and get used to the first low dose of the new ones.  

Merely Me - I just wrote on Deborahs site re Taking Meds. Ive decided to stop apologising to people for having Depression and am going to stop same for taking meds. I have to take meds in order to survive, my Depression and the Anxiety are Disabling, I cant funcion, So if anyone has problems with that - tough ! thats my new Motto. Im also determined to fight this awful Stigma of being a loser coz I suffer with Depression.  So maybe theres anger in there and alot of feelings close to the surface but I think in  a painful situation, Im being positive. 

Hi M/M (again),

It seems I just missed your last 'deadline' (Effexor) by a mere 5 minutes!

OK, here goes:

1.  On a scale of one to ten how are you feeling with ten being the best?

      Right now? I'd say about a 7-8.

2.  What was the best and the worst part about this week for you?

      The worst part was I 'slept away' the better part of the week. Yesterday, I woke up at 9am only because of the phone. Once I got up I felt terrible; just worn out & worn down. Around 11am I just went back to bed & slept until almost 3pm. I stayed 'up' until around 10pm & somehow managed to sleep through the night. The whole day felt like a "2" & dropping.

The best part was feeling SO much better today, mostly due to my sleeping? All I know is I'm SO tired of feeling like this.

3.  What have you done this week to be kind to yourself and help you to move towards emotional well being?

     I got myself up earlier (around 8am). After my usual morning routine (coffee, computer, etc) I went out to the pool for a couple of hours (going to hit 90f today! Tonight I'm meeting with some friends. I enjoy my 'alone time' but cannot discount the necessity of having others around. It's all a balancing act, I suppose. 

I saw "The Soloist" on a flight home from Miami last month. Wonderful movie, although sad, poignant & at times, very touching. Jamie Foxx is the best (loved him in "Ray"!)!

1. I definitely had another 10 day. When I had a chance to share with a young educated musician and sound technician about the local salsa band TV presentation's sound track. That was knowledge in action in the present-the way life is best. 

2.  The best part of the week was being an evaluator at Toastmasters. Encouraging a writer of  computer programs to be freer in his delivery style, and offering any helping comments on his latest talk. Focusing on helping someone who considers you their peer, is very exhilarating, and self strengthening.

The worst part of the week was when I found myself drifting into unwholesome thinking.

3. How I rewarded myself was to watch the entire concert production by the salsa band on local TV last night, just enjoying the musicianship of some of the best in the U.S.

Thanks for sharing, MM.  

my week was up & down.sun. i had a blessed time @ church being prayed for & feeling loved while the weather here has been gloomy gray and rainy & turned cold.my dr.confirmed carpel tunnel in both hands so i have to wear braces on my hands @ night & hope i won't need surgery.lately i feel tired & sluggish & my concentration has gone . i think i may be in need of a medicine change.i'm in either slow gear or no gear. overall rating maybe a 4.

Okay, here are my answers:

1.  On a scale of one to ten how are you feeling with ten being the best?  I'd have to say a 5.

2.  What was the best and the worst part about this week for you?

The best part of the week was going to Happy Hour tonight with my husband, my brother-in-law and his wife.  The worst was having a few days early in the week when I was extremely tired and didn't care about anything.  I've been on Zoloft now for two weeks and still feel mostly flat.

3.  What have you done this week to be kind to yourself and help you to move towards emotional well being?

Retail therapy - I bought three new kitchen appliances that are being delivered tomorrow.  Now, isn't that thrilling?  Seriously, I will enjoy baking and cooking more with my new stove. 

Hi Merely Me( I dont like calling you that, I think your Marvelous Me)

Not a brilliant start to the week I'd say a five.

Stressed out when I had a problem in shop, found it hard to let that go. Then last night I couldn't sleep very well and was lying there for hours. This time of year I find hard , my dad died just before bonfire night and I was thinking of him. I still miss him so much and get really angry that I didn't have much time with him and my children missed out on a grandfather. I'm so grateful to my mum though who thought I was a bit of handful and so sent me out with my Dad for long walks to tire me out I think. because it gave me times with my Dad that I'll always treasure, His illness never stopped him enjoying life, I rember him Dancing, when he was well enough in between ops. I just miss him so much.

1. On a scale of one to ten how are you feeling with ten being the best?

8

2. What was the best and the worst part about this week for you?

Im undecided cause this morning I realized that someone is in love with me(not my wife) and I am having thoughts about her. I also have a 2nd interview for a job that pays really well and is much better than the one I slave too right now.

3. What have you done this week to be kind to yourself and help you to move towards emotional well being?

I cleaned. I have to clean house in order to feel better.

Pat

1.  On a scale of one to ten how are you feeling with ten being the best?

I'd have to say I'm about an 8 right now, having a nice long chat with my friend Jill and realizing we're both pretty lucky to have each other.

2.  What was the best and the worst part about this week for you?

Best part of the week had to be scoring 100% on my Psychology assignment I mean really how often do grades like that happen!

Worst part of the week some woman assumed that becuse I'm a little "fluffy" or "plush" that I must be pregnant and totally embarassed me in the street. People don't ever consider there could be other reasons for being "fluffy" and for me a big one is that I have to be careful about exercise because for what an average person does to lose weight I can only accomplish half as much as my body tires quickly due to my disability. Moreover I find that medication when I'm required to be on it also adds to weight gain which is a really cruddy side-effect.

3.  What have you done this week to be kind to yourself and help you to move towards emotional well being?

This week I took a day off, I knew I was getting overworked, stressed and upset because I needed the rest. More then that I finally got my landlord to fix the heating so I am finally not freezing, how this helps my emotional wellbeing, consider how sad you feel in wet clothing in the winter and thats about how sad ive been for over a month when I'd get home. I also realized that I don't have to change for anyone because it's perfectly alright to be me, and because of that I have even allowed myself in the dorky practice of re-reading Twilight