Free Falling Friday!

MM, I am very proud of you.  It taks a lot of guts to be able to stand in front of a crowd of people ant speak, and be able to hold your composure, but hey you can do it, once you get started, it is a piece of cake.  You will do a great job!    Merely do what you do best inspire, and uplift, there is life beyond depression, you have shown and helped all of us with that.  sherry/smomdukes

OMG....You are a good women.  I just had to give an oral speach in a class of, oh maybe about 20 people and I thought I was going to die. 

Now for your questions

1.  I had a very stressful and crappy week I would give it...considering my nerves...about a 3.

2.  The best of the week was just getting throught it....lol

     The worst would be just my nerves being soooo bad.  I had to take an Ativan a      few times so that I didn't freak out. I also was very angry at everyone...I feel better today though.

3.  What did I do for myself?  I fianlly said NO....

My week has been very good. But One of my greatest joys is to know you are speaking at a conference, MM.

Like you say, you are sort of a veteran on the subject. So you have tons of wisdom and life experiences to 

draw from. My best encouragement is to think about getting your message into your audience. As long as you are focused on the message, you won't be focused on how you are doing or how you feel..I'm sure you'll be fantastic.

1.  On a scale of one to ten...with one being the worst and ten being the best...tell me how your week has gone.

 9.9

2.  What was the best and the worst part of this week.  Please don't worry about telling us the bad stuff.  We want to hear the truth...the good, the bad, and the ugly.

I had an ugly moment or two, but without them I wouldn't be growing. 

3.  What have you done this week to be kind to yourself or to take a step or two forward with your mental health?  What are you doing to help yourself and is it working for you?

What I have done is refocus on serving others. That gives me a direction. When I take time to equip myself

by reading material that expands my mind, pricks my conscience, or just make me laugh, I'm renewing my capacity to give, It's easier to give when I'm refreshed. So I protect my personal time, and get to bed in time to get a full nights sleep. I keep my appointments with my counselors, and health care providers. I keep my vitamins stocked, volunteer at church, I have a lady friend, who I call almost every day, more than once. I  keep on keeping on, by grace. And I'm am continuously being renewed. Oh yes, it's working!

Good luck with your speech on Monday, MM - I'm sure you'll do great.  Your description of buckets under your armpits - well, what a picture!  Here are my answers to your questions this week:

1.  On a scale of one to ten...with one being the worst and ten being the best...tell me how your week has gone. 

It's probably been mostly a 5 again.

2.  What was the best and the worst part of this week.  Please don't worry about telling us the bad stuff.  We want to hear the truth...the good, the bad, and the ugly.

The best part of the week was seeing my grandson Wednesday night; he's just learned to walk and is practically running and he looks like pure joy.  He throws kisses now, too.  The worst part of the week was all the cleaning, etc., I had to do to get ready for my grandson's birthday party tomorrow - there will be over 30 people coming.

3.  What have you done this week to be kind to yourself or to take a step or two forward with your mental health?  What are you doing to help yourself and is it working for you?

I decided to skip two things that are going on on Sunday, partly because of the birthday party tomorrow and I just want a day to do nothing.  I don't even feel  guilty about it - maybe that's an advantage of being numb!

7 for me this week

The worst was feeling sad and angry that my dad had such a short life(he died just before bonfire night) to feel better, I tell my kids, what a lovely, caring, brave man he was,even though he was so ill and tell myself how lucky I was to have a dad like that.

Hi Merely Me,

Good luck with the speech on Monday - I understand the nerve wracking thing but I'm so glad you're doing it regardless. I think when we pull stuff off despite our fears it helps us feel better in the long run. Plus I think you've got a lot to say and you say it well.

1.  On a scale of one to ten...with one being the worst and ten being the best...tell me how your week has gone. 

I'd say maybe a 5. I still feel less than great but I know I feel better than I have been feeling. Hell over the last couple of weeks I didn't feel I could post answers to your questions!!! Though I did keep coming to read everyone else's.

2.  What was the best and the worst part of this week.  Please don't worry about telling us the bad stuff.  We want to hear the truth...the good, the bad, and the ugly.

Everything is a bit of a blur - when I get like this my memory is pretty bad. But I guess the best part was writing today: I actually wrote about 12pgs (A4 typed on computer) of a book I'm writing, which as a writer yourself I'm sure you understand isn't an easy feat (and takes a lot of time). The worst... I don't know, it's just not been very pleasant, but nothing big has happened... I guess it would be crying my eyes out... I think that was this week. I couldn't sleep and broke down in a free for all huge crying session that lasted at least 20mins and left me red faced and puffy eyed... maybe that was last week... see how terrible my memory is???

3.  What have you done this week to be kind to yourself or to take a step or two forward with your mental health?  What are you doing to help yourself and is it working for you?

Writing made me feel a bit better... I have to work on my diet a bit more I think (I'm losing weight but not because of what I'm eating - I'm eating mainly junk... I have no idea why I'm losing weight - I'm getting unhealthy type thin). I try to watch DVDs but I can't really get absorbed... nothing is really working much. But there was that writing today so maybe things are looking up... plus I have a trip to LA to look forward to (in 2weeks). Watch out America I'm coming, lol.

i got my flu shot, put in an application for a job, played a bunch of video games & mostly stayed indoors.this week was a 3 or maybe a 4

You know MM when I was in college I took at speech class, and I actually received 2 trophys heyyyyyyy.  But I remember something that my grandfather told me long time ago, it is crazy, but now that I am old it now makes a lot of sense.  He told me that when I am up there talking when I look out over the crowd, picture them as I would the garden; cabbage, tomatoes, carrots, lettuce, onions, a few of my pets running around, and a couple of my dolls.  Just start talking, pretend like they are listening and they are interested, and the crowd will take on the attitude.  You know it works, your nerves will calm down, the crowd will become at ease because you are at ease, they will feel you confidence, and before you know it you are finished.  Boom it netted me two trophies!  sherry/smomdukes

ps And a A+