hi

yeah I have been reading some entries and I cant beleive the similarities ! This is my first time here,I am a depressed soul .At least for the last 3 years and I cant seem to shake it!!

I have changed so dramatically from who I once was.

Lost  a friendship ,,,and pushed many people away

Some can not handle the constant unhappiness

or maybe the cant handle the fact they cant change you I dont know.

I have my good and bad days. I sometimes fool myself in thinking i MUST BE BETTER,THEN IT WILL HIT ME LIKE A TON OF BRICKS!

I am on meds. they do seem to help but they dont take it away .

I sometimes dont want to leave my house but that is an improvement from not wanting to get out of bed!

I have no desire to be arounda bunch of people

I like a few at a time

I use to be so full of jokes and smiles .

I dont find much humor in things

I make myself laugh so I dont seem to be so gloomy when im out with people.

It is just such hard work to act like your not depressed it becomes so tiring.

I dont really no what to do.

some of my friends just dont want to hear it anymore and feel I should have moved on by now.

or some have said to get over it!

Beleive me I wish I could .

so I find mysself here a place hopefully i can vent and get some ideas on how to make it thru a day ...

thanks ....