I am deciding between two people to tell about my depression.
I guess I am somewhat relieved that I have been able to really analyze who to tell.
One is my best girlfriend Elizabeth. She's the greatest. The only thing that makes me hesitate is that I wonder, she has never mentioned , but I wonder if it would be too much to tell her as her father passed away a couple years ago and it seems her family still has not been able to get over it. ( They are now extreme hoarders etc) She and I have been very good friends for quite some time but I dont want to tell her if it could possibly add to her own hidden sadness.
The other person I am considering telling is a guy I dated for like close to two years. We aren't in any official relationship right now but dating on and off. He was there for me the first time I went through depression. He knows me really well... But I don't know if I should tell him about this because I am pretty emotionally attached and whatnot since we were together for quite some time.
I am not sure who to tell....
Any suggestions?
Other than thinking about this I have not been able to do much in terms of seeing someone. I am home for the break, not on UT campus where I could see a psychiatrist that works for the student health center...
As for how I have been feeling lately...
I have been somewhat happy during the daytime. ( that is...not sad) I guess I am neutral! at night is the worst. I have been having nightmares. And I just feel like my hearts gettin bulldozed. Sharp sadness. then a pretty heavy aching all night. All that combined with so much mind restlessness I feel like thoughts are screaming outloud.....
The happiness during the day though...thats somewhat new. So that's an improvement. :]
haha
That is a lot...
and that is all.
CC
Hi, CC. From what you've said, I think it would be okay to tell your best friend. She's going to feel sadness about losing her father for some time, but it's not the same thing you're going through. You could even talk with her about your concern for telling her about it and why. You could just simply tell her you've been depressed and are going to get some professional help without going into a lot of detail, unless she asks you more questions. I think if you just play it by ear, you'll know.
As for the guy friend, I think you're wise to hold back on that for now. You're in a vulnerable place and could make yourself even more so by confiding in him, depending on his reaction. If he would happen to notice that you don't seem like yourself, though, you could mention that you've been feeling somewhat depressed and let it go at that.
I'm glad you're feeling better during the day. I think sometimes that happens because we can get distracted by things that are going on, so aren't as aware of our misery but also, it could be that you're feeling better because you are planning to get some help when you go back to school. Just knowing that can help a lot.
Thanks for sharing what's going on and I think it's good that you're being thoughtful about what to share with whom.