i told them that i cut again. i told mom not to be angry but she was. just a bit. we got a bandaid thats big enough but it's already starting to fall off. imma use the heavy duty clear tape to hold it on haha. but the thing that worries me is this: she told me that if i cut again, i can't see my best frined on christmas in person. if i cut after that, i wont see her in real on easter. and after that, she will spank me like a little baby. she doesn't understant... lets just hope the councelor can explain it to her... i can't stop. and i fear ill mark the next time im left home alone. i wanna go with them and i will from now on. thats all. oh my real dad understands me and says mom doesn't understand. my step dad follows my mom so... yeah.