Bipolar Mania&Depression

I have never done this before. I don't know who I am talking too, I don't know if i want to do this. It scares me to open up yet I am loosing my personal support system outside of the virtual and really feel like i don't have anyone to turn too. Is this a chat room or message board?  Can someone please help me? I have recently been diagnosed with bipolar, working on new meds, and may even have a drug problem. Don't know what to do. I am out of meds now, don't see doc for another week, and i can feel mania and exhaustion and paranoia and loss of control squirming through me like the blood that flows through me.