does the craziness ever stop

Hi everyone. This is Andrea again. I am not sure what to put today, but i feel like i need to talk. With my issues it is such a struggle not to want to just crawl in my bed and hide. AS I have said before, I have been diagnosed with Bipolar II / Mania, severe depression, Panic Disorder, and PTSD. Now we have found that the medication (lamictal) that i am taking is causing additional problems along with these others. Causing hallucinations and voices, and I feel like i am going crazy. I just want the confusion, anxiety, and depression to STOP. I want to be able to function on a normal level....yeah i know what is that...I am talking about getting back to how i was before i used....I was strong, knew what i wanted, took care of myself and others, and was always the first to step up to help take care of something for my family members. I am just lost in an abyss of nothingness and very raw feelings. I know that I have to give it up to god, it is imperative.  Any way, my concentration level is next to nothing. I can't sit still for no more than 5 minutes or so, and can't seem to keep my mind in one spot as well. So i am going to close for now. Maybe i will post something when i am having a good day...but haven't had one of those yet. Thanks every one.