Information and opinions on Depression from aknight35 at MyDepressionConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/85713/craziness-stop Sun, 06 Sep 2009 15:44:19 -0400 aknight35 Hi everyone. This is Andrea again. I am not sure what to put today, but i feel like i need to talk. With my issues it is such a struggle not to want to just crawl in my bed and hide. AS I have said before, I have been diagnosed with Bipolar II / Mania, severe depression, Panic Disorder, and PTSD. Now we have found that the medication (lamictal) that i am taking is causing additional problems along with these others. Causing... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/85713/craziness-stop http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/85130/takes-long Tue, 01 Sep 2009 22:47:00 -0400 aknight35 I am going on my fifth week of medications for my bipolar. They don't seem to be working like some others have in the past. I don't know if it needs to take longer or what. I experienced a panic attack the other day in middle of my NA meeeting. I had to leave. I couldn't breathe and started shaking real bad. It seems to me that because i am a recoverying addict amongst other things tthat it may take longer. I usually end up dealing with my... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/85130/takes-long http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/84158/tired-emotions Mon, 24 Aug 2009 21:30:53 -0400 aknight35 I am so tired of emotions. I am being told by others that all goes through it. I don't understand why we have to go through emotions so deeply while trying to go through so much other stuff. I don't understand why it seems like my depression hits me at the strangest times for no reason at all. I don't want to do anything, i don't even want to get out of bed. Yet, my body hurts when i lay around but i don't want to do anything. I get like this... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/84158/tired-emotions http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/82835/depression Fri, 14 Aug 2009 19:35:11 -0400 aknight35 You know i feel a little different coming in here than i do about going to NA chat room. In here i feel like i am complaining all the time.  I went to my first NA meeting today. It was scary. I will keep going back though. Cant judge something on a first time basis. There is another meeting tonight but don't think i will go to that...not tonight. That is a bit much and group is much bigger...it took everything i had just to stay in room. I... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/82835/depression http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/82282/diary-post-day Tue, 11 Aug 2009 06:15:40 -0400 aknight35 To all who read, this is going to be short for now but will have more later. This is going to be my new way of keeping a diary. If it is offensive, upsetting, or you think i shouldn't please let me know right away. I am new at this and it has been one long night but I am very greatful that LyraStorm was on to see me through. I have a lot of things going on in my head and i want to get rid of them. Let them come and then go so i have room for the... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/82282/diary-post-day http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/82264/depression Tue, 11 Aug 2009 01:10:21 -0400 aknight35 I have never done this before. I don't know who I am talking too, I don't know if i want to do this. It scares me to open up yet I am loosing my personal support system outside of the virtual and really feel like i don't have anyone to turn too. Is this a chat room or message board?  Can someone please help me? I have recently been diagnosed with bipolar, working on new meds, and may even have a drug problem. Don't know what to do. I am out... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/883426/82264/depression