I'm tired. I'm tired of the fact after 6 years, Wellbutrin XL quit working so well, so now I'm on Lexapro from 10 to 20, now back to 10 because I itch from my chest to thighs all night and during the day! I was exhausted for two months. Dr. added Provigil (I have sleep apnea). I realized Lexapro prevents vitamins such as B's from being absorbed. I quit taking B's because of the Provigil (they both make me "speedy" and "chatty", didn't need them both!), but added the B's back due the high level of exhaustion. Thought things were getting ok, still sad, anxious for no reason sometimes, but absolutely lacking in motivation, focus, or energy. Dr. gave me Deplin on Thursday when I went in about the itching. He said break the 20's into 10's of the Lexapro for the itching and see if Deplin helps with all of the other stuff. I'm still itching, he doesn't seem as concerned as I am (I have red bruise blotches on my chest). I don't know what else to do.
I'm tired, its 3am. I have a great life but no ability to appreciate it. I'm sick of feeling and living this way, feeling like some huge part of me is missing. Why the hell can't I figure this out?
Stop whining, that's what I tell myself. Stop whining and tough up. Life's not as hard as you make it. Maybe not, but how can I make it easier?
Stopping whining would help would't it?!?
