You know what is the worst feeling in the world is when you feel alone and there is nobody there for you.....The person that you need the most has turned their back on you even when you have explained everything to them....as embarrasing as it is and they still don't get it....they tell me that I ruin their life when all I have tried to do is my best....but when your best is not good enough where do you go from there?.....I always pictured my life to be so different....a happy one.....I used to be a happy person that had no worries.........but now all I do is worry....It is hard to fail at something you fought for....something that you cared for....and most of all something you loved soooo much....it just really hurts to find out that you don't get that same reaction....well at least tomorrow I will get to be with family that loves me for me....thats something positive.......
Sorry to hear about your situation. Though I can say honestly that I dont know that exact feeling. I can say that I have been in a very lonely place before and the only things that help are being with positive people. people that you love and love you back.
Give yourself lots of positive reinforcement that things will be better because they will.
Kudos to you for reaching out.
Pat