Whilst reading the books I currently love (the Sword of Truth Series), in the tenth book called 'Phantoms', there was a quote I really liked. One of the characters, Nicci, says this:

‘I doubt that anyone who has not been lost in the suffocating world of the Order's teachings can begin to grasp what it's like to believe that your life is worthless and of no value, or grasp the shadow of terror that falls over you everytime you try to turn away from what you have been taught is your only means of salvation'

In my head I translate it to:

‘I doubt that anyone who has not been lost in the suffocating world of depression can begin to grasp what it's like to believe that your life is worthless and of no value, or grasp the shadow of terror that falls over you everytime you try to turn away from what you have been taught is your only means of salvation (defence mechanisms)'

I've been trying very hard to overcome that fear, to step away from the world of depression into the world of life, and let go of my defence mechanisms to do so... but it's almost like stepping out of the house naked... only far, far worse...

I'm very tired at the moment. I can't seem to get enough sleep. Anyone else feeling like that right now? Like they've exhausted themselves fighting this fight?

Here's to hoping I get a new wind of energy soon...