Just felt like sharing my latest two diary entries...
Friday, 4th September 2009 - There's something a little bit insulting about being told your brain looks healthy & normal. I mean considering how much mental anguish I've been through you'd think it should show up on a MRI - but I guess that just proves how little people know &... Read more
I smiled today and my parents asked me why. They were surprised, you see. I told them I was in a good mood, what's wrong with that? They said nothing, why are you in a good mood. It seemed unfeasible to them that I might just simply smile. It got me wondering how long it must have been since they've last seen me smile - I mean a proper smile like... Read more
I was going through my computer trying to clear out some of my old documents - very hard for a writer to do. I get attached to every useless thing I write down, it's pathetic. Anyway I thought perhaps this was something worth sharing. I wrote it a very long time ago, in December 2004 if the date attached to the file is correct, and so it's not... Read more
I thought I knew my depression, all the different ways it affected me, all the different people I felt that I became, all the emotions and symptoms and everything... I've felt more anger than I thought a person could hold without exploding. I've been so afraid that everything stopped working as it should and I fell to pieces crying and shaking and... Read more
Tim was a good friend of mine. A fellow actor. A fellow victim of depression... He took his life three years ago. Today would have been Tim's 22nd birthday so to remember him I'm going to share with you all the piece that his family wrote about him for his funeral. I didn't go to his funeral, I was overseas at the time, but after I returned... Read more