Information and opinions on Depression from LyraStorm at MyDepressionConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/94676/picture-trip Thu, 12 Nov 2009 23:44:29 -0500 LyraStorm I thought I might show you a picture of myself, Ben Browder and Claudia Black. I'm smitten by Ben so that's why I'm blushing so... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/94676/picture-trip http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/94503/back Wed, 11 Nov 2009 20:37:14 -0500 LyraStorm Hi all, thanks for your kind words about my trip (and sorry Paul for not taking your hint and writing whilst I was away)... the trip was good... or should have been. Logically it was everything I would want it to be but unfortunately I just felt so depressed I was disconnected and felt pretty horrible throughout. It might have had a little to do with jetlag and the food (the stuff I could find of American food, what I ate, was very fatty and... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/94503/back http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/93425/hate-enjoyable Wed, 04 Nov 2009 08:27:16 -0500 LyraStorm I'm going on a holiday - I'm going to LA to a sci-fi convention to meet people that I respect and admire. I should be happy. But whenever anyone brings it up I feel like crying and I want to move the conversation along. I only let myself think about it when I can actually DO something in the planning - I go tomorrow so I've had to think about it quite a bit today. It makes me anxious. It's daft cause I've travelled heaps and I know it's... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/93425/hate-enjoyable http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/92663/figure Thu, 29 Oct 2009 08:43:53 -0400 LyraStorm Does anyone else ever change and look back at something they have done and can't believe that they did it? I mean, it's kind of like I have several personalities, though they all answer to the same name and have the same past they react distinctly different to situations. One day I'll laugh at what another day I will lose my temper over. The worst part is when I do something thinking I'm being completely rational and justified and then a few... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/92663/figure http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/91999/australia Sat, 24 Oct 2009 11:26:05 -0400 LyraStorm A friend of mine sent me info on Facebook about the inquiry into suicide in Australia and I thought that perhaps some people on here might want to contribute - if so follow the link in the letter from Kate, the person behind spreading awareness on Facebook, below.   Hey Guys I'm writing to you because the Australian Government has announced an inquiry into suicide in Australia and I want you to write a submission to the inquiry!! This... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/91999/australia http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/91193/deal-guilt Sun, 18 Oct 2009 00:33:31 -0400 LyraStorm Sunday, 18th October 2009 - Last night, or in the early hours of this morning (before I went to sleep), I fell apart crying. One of those complete, all consuming crying fits that leaves you with puffy eyes, spots of blood vessels, in the morning. It just sort of hit me what Mum said before & hurt so bad. I suddenly had no defence against it. Just the idea that I put my shit on others... These past 3yrs have been difficult enough, not being... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/91193/deal-guilt http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/89557/kind-words Mon, 05 Oct 2009 21:57:53 -0400 LyraStorm Hi everyone, thank you for all your kind comments on my last post. Just to let you all know that I'm not feeling so bad anymore. I think the sex actually helped me with confidence - you see I've been held back in so many avenues for so long cause of the shit that has happened in my life. I was always scared of people entering my personal space but now I know it's no big deal. Sex wasn't great for me, in fact I disconnected and felt next to... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/89557/kind-words http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/89413/ve Sun, 04 Oct 2009 22:41:17 -0400 LyraStorm I had a big argument with my Mum Saturday night cause I got sick of her treating Dad like dirt. She ended up saying that I've thrown my shit on everyone for years (apparently she is entitled to) - I don't think that is true. I shut myself away so I don't pile it on everyone else... I hope it's not true... It hurt real bad so I disappeared Sunday - just went out without telling them where saying I wouldn't be home for dinner, didn't... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/89413/ve http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/88632/vow-make Tue, 29 Sep 2009 09:36:10 -0400 LyraStorm A silent tear fell down my face Another quickly followed in order to race Against one another to betray my fears But I merely wiped away the salty tears   I'll stand tall and pretend I'm fine Until everything once more falls in line Hear me now, this vow I make That which was stolen I'll one day retake http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/88632/vow-make http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/88383/don-home Sun, 27 Sep 2009 09:53:10 -0400 LyraStorm I never thought the day would come when I would dread coming home. It came. I am home, otherwise I wouldn't be on the internet, but I would rather be anywhere else. How odd it is to hear me say that. Normally I'm a recluse - home means shutting myself away in my room, my safe place. But now home means the place where Mum is - and Mum isn't the person I want to be around right now.   You see Mum has had a breakdown of sorts and I want... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/932594/88383/don-home