Tuesday, November 23, 2010
I feel really depressed today at work. I don't know why, nothing bad happened. I can feel my anxiety starting to come back all of a sudden. I worry about having to deal with anything at work. I worry I won't be able to handle it. I am also so tired all the time. Instead of a 2:30 feeling, I get like a 11:00 feeling, and I still have 5 more hours of work. I am starting to hate my job, even though I actually love it, its just so hard right now with my depression. I have some appointments scheduled in the next month, but they seem so far away. I need to feel better now.
Hi, Ashleyanne. I think I understand just how you feel as I had several depressive episodes during my working days. I liked my work, but everything else drove my half crazy - politics, people back-stabbing to get ahead, etc. Anyway, I'm glad that you have some appointments scheduled and hope you can just hang on to that. No matter what you do right now, there is nothing that can make you feel better instantly, unfortunately. You might need medication and/or therapy. Know that you're not alone, though. You can write here any time for some support in the meantime. You are doing the best you can right now, so be kind to yourself and don't blame yourself for feeling this way.
Let us know how you're doing, okay?
Thanks so much for the support! I really need it right now. I have been on medicine for depression and anxiety for a few years. But my depression and anxiety are starting to come back stronger every day now, not sure why. I am going to my primary doctor to get some tests done. My therapist says it could be my iron, vitamin d, or my thyroid possibly causing this. Also, she told me to schedule an appointment with my psychiatrist to look into changing up my meds. But the next appointment he has available is in a month, so I took it but I might try to find another doctor before then. I shouldn't have to wait a month when I am this depressed. Its very frustrating. Anyways I felt like yesterday was horrible, I didn't get anything done the rest of the day at work after I posted on here. I was really scared about coming to work today, but the whole way to work I just kept thinking positive thoughts. So far I am having an okay day, I just hope it lasts through the day. I am determined not to have a 11:00 feeling today!
Glad you're feeling a little better today. I know it shouldn't take so long to get in to see a psychiatrist, but I think it's that way just about everywhere, as there really is a shortage of them. Plus, he/she wouldn't want to mess around with your meds without talking to you in person. It is good to get some of those other things checked out, too - thyroid, etc., which will be good knowledge to have when you see the psychiatrist.
Hope the month goes by quickly for you and that everything works out okay. Let us know.