hi, starshine here i have only been on zoloft for 3 months, it pooped out quickly, paxil was the first one i ever tried and it worked great but i remembered the withdrawal and i am scared, it was awful, i have one more day on zoloft, just a little anxious, but it is the only one that worked.
why is it that when i am going through this awful disease, that someone like my "so called brother" would try to continue pressuring me oh by
the was given seroquel and prozac by his doc yet he calls me crazy
because i have been in therapy in one way or another to deal with growing up abused mentally and physically, i sought counseling in high school, university and from then on i tried so hard to make my family love me
but graduating at 16 didnt do it, the masters degree didnt do it, then i got cancer that was my fault, you see, this so called brother ruled our house
he was first born, he didnt have his father, mom married a wonderful man
from europe i was the child from that marriage, jealousy, name calling,
and letting me know i wasnt as black as he is i was tainted began as soon as i was 5yrs old, he is much older than me he is 61, and i am in hiding from him to protect myself from verbal abuse mom died in2008 as did my dad and he doesnt want me to have mypart of the inheritance, sometimes i just want to say take it leave me alone!!! so he hasnt paid his laywers they want their 67,000 dollars and he cant take anything from me but he got a lien on the house becasue he doesnt pay his bills in hopes that he will gain and i will lose. what did i do? i was born!!! nothing i do is right
and i want it to stop i tried a no contact order that just made it worse, i dont even go into my living room i stay in my room with my cat and my books and i cant get out of bed except to go to my doc and therapist
i want to keep my power but it is leaving me, i am in high anxiety mode i know it is a littlle from withdrawal and alot form being in the same town with a so called brother who bought his house hasnt paid me to buy me out he always says he has no money he is worth over 1.2million he told me he is dissapointed that i wont fight the war of being ripped off by the lawyers he hired and to get rid of mine. it doesnt feel ggod to feel so hated and he is trying to guilt trip me for not lifting furniture and taking care of him cooking, everything his mom did, i refuse he thinks the MS isnt real,
the bone pain is real the hep c from the transfusion in 1979 , its too much.
Hi Starshine
First of all it is really good to see you. I am curious about your meds situation. Are you stopping the Zoloft? Do you have another medication you will try? What does your doctor say about this?
I am sorry you are having so many problems with your brother...sounds like a lifelong battle? Do you see any hope on the horizon for things getting better?
Keep on writing...we definitely want to know how you are doing...the good and the bad.
Hi merely me!!! i am going to be back on the first med i ever took, paxil it agreed with me, then i was put on celexa for the last 8 years then another then zoloft
I decided to let the psyaritirist where i have therapy at take care of the psychotropic meds as she does this every day, is an M.D.
this way I wont feel so guilty when a med didnt work out and me doc tried only
4 meds and said"your complicated we have tried everything" no we havent I never go off meds without medical supervision, just these 4 days titrating off zoloft has been awful tommrow i look forward to swithing back to my old friend paxil, i had a clear head and no aphasia, i went through 5 surgeries on it it really helped, and i will stay on clonopin 1mg 3x a day. thank you for writing,
peace to you, starshine
HI Starshine,
I'm glad you are going to get on a med that can help you. I went through a similar thing regarding my father's will, but not as big as your inheritance and family problems. But I understand somewhat how awful you must feel in a minute way. I was shocked to find out I was written out of my Dad's Will, and this was after I took care of him when he had cancer. He told my brothers he forgave the debt, which I knew a debt had been paid back years before, but they didn't know what debt. Anyway, noone wanted to know the rest of the story. So I feel for you very much and hope that all goes well for you.
Ivory