Please Help.

I wrote this on a blog website which I have everyone who knows me. I published it to diary, afraid of what people will say. I wrote this to tell who I really am, because I've been called fake so many times... Please message me back.. Thank you

The real me cannot remember the last time I have been truly happy.
I am afraid of what people say about me.
I do not understand how daughters can lover their fathers
I am scared shitless of my so called father.
I am so insecure of my weight, due to people I wish were never in my life.
I look at myself and see nothing but ugly.
The real me has to see a therapist every week, for two hours..Since last YEAR.
I have been depressed since I was 10.
I take showers many times a day so I can cry, without my mom knowing.
I feel like I have no friends, and that I am hated by everyone.
I believe that there is no purpose for me to live.
I know that I am a fuck up, and cannot do anything right.
I've been abused mentally, for sixteen years straight.
I want to be loved, and I want to trust.
When people say bad things about me, I feel like I should die.
I hurt myself intentionally, because I feel like I deserve it.
I see people being happy, and wish I could be like them.
I have a hard time believing that I am a "good person".
It feels like God does not even love me.
Its difficult to want to go anywhere with friends, because I just want to be alone.
My worst fear of being alone, is my reality.
The real me is always sad.
I  want to be accepted, and feel accomplished.
I am the most un-intelligent person alive.
I want to run away, so no one knows me, so I am alone.
This is not even half of the real me.
The real me wants help.
Please help me.