hi today was pretty awful i didnt speak to anyone. ive been alone in my room trying to convinve my self everything is alright. wrong. just waiting, for something good to happen. wrong. i find something bad in everything and everyone i dont know why im always so upset, my friends make me mad and upset me even more my family dosent even acknowledge the fact at how horrible everything seems to be for me. i cant take it anymore, why do i stay up crying why am i constantly waiting for nothing. help me



Emily, would it be possible for you to just sit down and tell your mother that you feel there is something wrong and you need to see a therapist? She may not react in the way that you fear she will, but it seems like you need to grab her attention and tell her what's going on, even if you don't know why you feel this way. That's part of the problem, not knowing why. As a mother myself, I can't imagine getting angry at my child for feeling miserable and asking for help. If this doesn't work, can you talk to a counselor at school and ask for help? They can often refer you to someone and though your parents would probably need to know about it, it would reinforce to them how serious you are. People might seem not to notice because they don't want to admit that something could be wrong, so sometimes you have to make a little noise, not in an angry way, just enough noise so that they cannot ignore you any more. You can certainly keep writing here and getting support, but it feels like you could really use some personal support from someone face-to-face.
What do you think?