Just feel like a loser today

By aml0017 Wednesday, November 16, 2011

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I just feel like such a loser today. My dryer recently just stopped blowing hot air. Of course I don't absolutely need a dryer, not that I can afford to have it fixed right now. So, my mom and stepdad offered to pay to get it looked at, hopefully fixed. Waiting on that. Now, it seems that my water heater is leaking. It is old and this was probably a long time coming but still it seems like everything is piling on all at once. My savings is already depleted from other stuff I had to fix, and I haven't had a chance to even try to build it back up again. Without a savings, I am just living paycheck to paycheck.

I know this is just life and these things are going to happen, but I guess despite all the things I have been able to accomplish in the last few years, I still have to ask my parents for help for every little thing. Hopefully I will be able to begin to pay them back someday. I am in the process of paying off my debt right now, debt that has been holding me back so many years. I have managed to pay off a lot but still a long way to go. It just seems like I have come so far and yet gotten nowhere at the same time.

I'll get past this, it is not the first time I've felt this way, by far. But at this moment I just feel completely helpless and like a total loser.

More exhausted than before

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lopezg

11/16/11 5:17pm

I know the feeling. About a month ago i got surgery on my right knee. That really caused me to feel the same. This surgery came with a lot of bills. I didnt know what i was going to do. Im going to school and dont have a job. I cant even get a job right now because im in crutches. I dont have any money to pay bills. My mom offered to give payments while i get a job. That was hard for me to accept. A month earlier i was paying my own bills. I was living in an apartment ansld had to move in temporarly with my parents while i recovered. Another thing that isnt great at the moment is that i canf drive. I have depend on others to give me rides to school and appt. This was a huge change for me...My therapist got me to understand that sometimes we have to ask for help. I was too proud to do that but i didnt have anoylther choice...Just think that this is temporary. I will pay my parents back someday. Just cant happen right now. I hope things go right for you soon...Wish this was helpfull.

aml0017

11/16/11 5:27pm

I know. I keep trying to remind myself that all the worrying in the world won't change a thing but easier said than done. Hope you get well soon.

lopezg

11/16/11 6:40pm

definately easier said than done! I still struggle but itll take some time.

Marishka

11/16/11 8:14pm

Hi, me too. I am just so stressed about money. I feel like a stupid idiot. Been refraining from thinking this all day when it starts to come to my mind.

I am mad at myself, the world, what has caused all of us to suffer (Occupy Wall Street issues) economically. I am just bouncing off the walls with anxiety tonight.

I have been eating fast food! And not exercising. Just not doing right. I need to stop and start right tomorrow. And I will. Back to healthy food, exercise. I am just so scared about bills. And not having enough money and having to ask my father for help and he is very scary and makes me feel like a piece of dirt under the rug. I hate the situation.

I hate it that I am still sick with 'fibryomyalgia' and in pain so many days and cannot work and help the situation by bringing in some money. I feel so helpless sometimes. I want to force myself to get well tomorrow, and force this and force that so badly. I feel so helpless and stressed. I feel ok one day and the next, the pain is so bad, I do not feel I can take life anymore.

Hope it's ok, I chimed in with my money pressures. I feel the same as you.

Marishka

aml0017

11/17/11 9:01am

I think it is less the money itself than the feeling of being so out of control and helpless in one's own life. It is certainly humbling to be an adult and have to ask your parents for help. My mom and stepdad are thankfully not scary like your dad but still. I am trying to stick to eating right and keeping up with healthy habits too. It is hard to feel it helps any at the moment but it is important. I was so anxious last night I didn't even eat, my stomach was in knots. When I woke up this morning, I realized I had never even fed my dog or cat last night either! They were so hungry poor babies they were gobbling their food. I felt so bad and selfish, especially since the stuff I am anxious about is really not the end of the world.

Merely Me, Health Guide

11/22/11 7:04pm

Hey there

You certainly are not a loser. Appliances do this...they break down at inopportune times. Actually there is no good time for something to break down. We had one washer and dryer for years and years because my husband would order parts for them to fix them himself. But if it were me....I would have no clue what to do. When our dryer would break down we would use a drying rack but this is hard for towels to dry...they get kinda hardened.

I hope you get things fixed soon.

Let us know what happens.

and Happy Thanksgiving!

aml0017

11/23/11 9:22am

I was able to get my dryer fixed relatively cheaply, just needed a small part changed and a small fee for the repair guy, took him all of five minutes. The washer and the water heater are still old and will need replacement eventually. However, my stepdad and brother were able to fix them up for now, with "chewing gum, duct tape, and a prayer" as they say lol. Certainly not worth all that anxiety and stress.

Merely Me, Health Guide

11/23/11 11:06am

Awww this is good to hear. Yeah sometimes the older appliances last longer as they can be repaired. Some stores offer a long term plan for payment with no interest for a year...as long as you make steady payments you could get a new dryer...christmas time might also be a good time to look for sales on such items.

Thanks for reporting back. And don't beat yourself up...these things are stressful. But I am glad to hear you found some solutions. When these things happen...as I was telling myself just yesterday..."this anxiety is temporary." There is usually a solution to these sorts of aggravating problems.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving and thanks for all you do to contribute to this site and others.

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