So, as I may have mentioned in some of my previous posts, I have been having some health issues lately.  Mostly high blood pressure and the things that come along with it (headaches, sleep issues, etc).  Have been on meds for this and trying to improve my diet and exercise so I can lose some weight.  Haven't been having too much success.  I did lose over 10 lbs and was sticking to my diet/meds but as of my last followup my bp was still high.  Now I am going back to the doc because I am worried I might have a pelvic infection.

I am not necessarily overly anxious about this as I would normally be, but it is def starting to affect my anxiety levels.  I guess it is just coming to a head, feeling that I am out of control of my health right now.  I know I still have a ways to go with my weight and my diet, but I feel I am spinning my wheels.  I just simply don't feel "right". 

I know I haven't taken care of my health like I should, but even now with my bp like it is, it still hasn't "scared me straight".  Most of the time I can eat well and exercise, but if I am really anxious I can't do either at all, and if I am mildly anxious, it is still too easy for me to reach to food for comfort.  It is even harder for me to go to the doctor because I feel like I have "performance anxiety" when I go there.  Already, I can imagine what excuses I will give my dr for why I haven't progressed.  Obviously, that is not helping her help me any.