I have been going through a phase (last several months or so) where I feel fine throughout the week Mon-Fri but I feel horrible on the weekends.  I always feel great going into friday night and have all these plans about what I am going to accomplish that weekend, but Saturday it is always the same.  I always oversleep Saturday mornings, no matter how much I vow I will get out of bed at a reasonable time.  I just will feel so tired.  Finally, I will wake up feeling unrefreshed, and just stay in my pajamas and eat junk and watch movies.  All my plans to go to the park with the dog, clean my house, go out with a friend, etc. just goes out the window.  I feel trapped in my house.  By Sunday I am in a downward spiral.  HOwever, come monday morning, I feel fine again since I have to go out and go to work.  Yet, come Saturday morning the cycle starts again.  I can't figure it out nor can I seem to break it.

I think it has to do with the nature of my anxiety and worry right now.  I am not having anxiety attacks and crying jags like I normally would when anxiety would take over my life.  However, I have become very good at suppressing my anxiety so it is just simmering under the surface.  As long as I am preoccupied and going through my weekly routines I am ok but as soon as I am allowed to wallow in my thoughts, everything crashes down.

I am trying to stick to a healthy diet and exercise, with varying results.  Been very fatigued lately and having side effects from my bp meds.  Will be seeing my doctor soon.  Been having a lot of symptoms lately that make me worry about diabetes.  In addition to my excess weight and poor exercise habits, I have been having high bp, swelling and numbness in my hands/feet/calves, bruising, fatigue, etc.  things that just worry me.  I will tell my doc and probably request I be tested.  I could just be a hypochondriac, but then again maybe not.  I am terrified of having diabetes but guess not knowing is worse.