Minor setback

I have been feeling pretty good the past couple of weeks.  I don't have the morning depression so bad anymore.  It seems that I am back to my chronic mild depression/anxiety.  I'm not complaining.  I will take dysthymia any day over the heavy cloud of major depression.  I have been feeling so great I almost forgot about the reason I was so depressed in the first place (financial probs & debt, ugh).  But this morning at work some negative random thought popped in my head and I just had that crushing feeling all of a sudden.  It just came out of nowhere.  I honestly can't even remember the specific thought that I had.  I had to take some deep breaths and talk myself out of getting even more agitated.

I feel fine now, but it just goes to show how the depression/anxiety is always under the surface.  Luckily after 10 yrs I find I am managing it so much better.  Usually I have a severe episode up to 2 months after I have a major anxiety attack.  It has been about a month since I had my anxiety attack and I am already feeling better.  I have been able to maintain my normal daily routine and I am slowly getting back into maintaining a healthy diet and exercise routine. 

Today's "freak out", let's call it, just showed me the importance of being vigilant about controlling my depression and anxiety.