Shame on me! Why???

I have been doing so good lately.  I was eating healthy, exercising, relaxing, journaling, taking my meds on time, etc.  Then, a couple weeks ago I just let it all go to pot.  I have felt worse this past two weeks than I have in a while.  I did find out that my dog has heartworms so I was pretty upset.  But why do I stop doing all the things I know make me feel better when I need it the most?? It is a mystery.  I guess you live and learn.  I will be sticking to what works now. 

It just brings up the point: the very fact that you are depressed makes it harder to do the things you need to do to make the depression go away.  It is so frustrating.  When you are have a relatively good day it is just easier to do those things.  But when you are really down and those coping mechanisms would really help, it is just so hard to do them.  I mean, what is easier than just taking a little pill with water.  However, it was like I just didn't feel like it. I guess all you can do is the best you can.

Go figure, sometimes you are too depressed to stop being depressed.