introduction - new here

good morning everyone! i just discovered this site today. my husband & i had a blow up last night & i just don't know who to talk to anymore. i've been fighting depression since july of 2007 & it's been quite an up/down roller coaster, as i'm sure you all know. the hardest thing for me right now is figuring out how to deal with the emotions & hurt feelings of my husband. i have more of less come to terms with the fact that this is the way i am now, no matter how much i wish i wasn't. i take lexapro & it seems to help pretty well with my moods but my sex drive is in the tank. this is the problem with my husband, that's probably pretty obvious. i love him so much & i know it hurts his feelings that i don't want to be with him but i can't force myself, you know? & it's not that i don't want to... my heart & soul want to, but my body just doesn't respond anymore. i hate it! last night we had a blow up over all of this & he said some pretty hurtful things to me... i know he was just lashing out in hurt... but i need to find a way for us to reconnect. or a way to get my groove back. =)

i guess i feel like this is never going to go away & i'm scared that he might up & leave one day because he doesn't want to deal with it anymore. how do you deal with this? what do i do?

tia!