Saturday, April 05, 2008
I'm so tired of life, I try so hard to see the positive things that I've got going for me but the negatives just over-take everything. And when I encounter negative people, I take what they say so personally instead of pushing it aside and proving to myself I can do better. I'm still young but I feel very beaten down and the idea of living 60 more years feeling this way is scary. I'm trying to graduate college but the road has been extremely bumpy and it feel impossible. I'm about to get married(june) to the best man I could ever hope to know, but that happiness is always eclipsed by stress of planning it and school. I live alone when I'm at school and I feel as though there is no one to talk to. I'm exhausted.
Jenboleigh,
There's a lot of mixed input in your comment. Sounds like you need your meds updated and/or to get to a counselor a.s.a.p. Retraining our brains to look for positives rather than negatives is a difficult process that we must do whenever possible. I myself spent yesterday and today trapped in a quagmire of sleep, my feet entangled in mud and procrastination regarding tax preparation (an annual fear of mine.) I forced myself to what was right and by 4:00 I was 80% of the way to my goal for today, went to dine with friends and then played tennis with my kids (now that was a joke). Anyways, here I sit checking the site that I have come to adore because it brings me comfort to know that I am not alone. That others too struggle to tread water with the disease that robs of hope when we least desire it. Jen, remember we only have one day at a time and we need only make it through today. You can do this, you have many blessings to count -- 26 A to Z ! tee hee
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