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I have been successfully treated for reoccuring depression for over 25 years.  I recently lost my job which put a big burden on my husband.  We have been growing apart for years but this last trial has turned very abusive.  I have drawn all the unemploymnet funds and have no prospects of a job.  I am over fifty and have a knee with 19% disability so I am limited in what jobs I can do.  My husband has become very angry and is accusing me of not trying to find a job (which is far from the truth).  We fight over any money I ask for, my parents are both in a nursing home 40 miles from where we live.  He will not let me have gas money to go see them but once a week.  Twice we were told that my mother will not last long and if he catches me crying he accuses me of looking for attention.  He says I have known that they are dying for the last two years and i need to quit acting like a child and get over it.  Last week he told me I needed to go to the mental health center and claim disability because of my depression.  He really seems to be trying to push me over the edge and I have become very scared that he might do it.  Especially when my parents finally leave this world, my defences will be down and he

might try to have me locked up.  I am joining a self esteem group next week at the suggestion of the mental health center...which I resigned with last thursday.  I just wanted to post this to make people aware that you can be pushed, by the economy, the unemploymnet rate, even the people who are suppose to love and support you.  counseling and group therapy are very important during these times and I hope and pray that we all get the help we need.