Somewhere over the rainbow

Health Interests

Dissociative Identity Disorder

Drugs I am Taking

prozac,  valium,  ativan,  neurontin,  topamax,  fioricet,  methadone,  fentanyl,  benadryl,  occasionally buspar,  and another I can't remember for pain.

About Me

I was in and out of psych hospitals for about 10 years, lots of horrid events leading to and at those places! I had lots of unnecessarry drugs, misdiagnoses, useless treatment, an eating disorder for a long time with the usual background, except it was continual- which fractured my mind into different personalities or parts. I was finally dx. about 10 years ago with Dissociative Identity Disorder and have a God-send of a therapist, and a decent psch as well. It costs a pretty penny tho- (not my own, cuz i don't have any~") Then my connective tissue disorder that I thot was rather benign turned out to be reeking havok with my organs and I had to have open heart surgery- the itermittant neurological problems I'd had for many years (and was told were psychosomatic) took a nose dive exactly 2 months after my surgery and it's only gotten worse with every year and month since. I've been dx. with several rare conditions that explain it all, but there are only a handful of doctors worldwide who deal with them- I need a couple of major surgeries and can't get them $$ but the success with surgery with my type of connective tissue disorder isn't very promising in any case- I am told I will be completely disabled without the first surgery, for good- and already I am bored, extremely isolated where I live and miss my athletic life and independance. (can't drive due to seizure disorder, have no neighbors no TV, have to be braced a good deal of time and can't walk more than just around in the house- and then! only downstairs.) My family is tired of having a "sick mom" and hey, so am I! I'm just trying to find the purpose of God where I am today- over the rainbow~ (My Major dx's: DID, EDS, FCS CCI, TC, POTS, NES) translated: Dissociated Identity Disorder, Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, Functional Cranial Settling, Cranio-cervical Instability, Tethered Cord, Postural orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome, Non-Epileptic Sezures) ...A mouthful-