So Glad to be Here!

I am isolated as I cannot work, going out is hard and each day presents a new challenge! The side effects of the medication are terrible. Each time I am given a new "cocktail" (which I call changing dose, adding, removing drugs) I have to endure 2 days to 2 weeks of new side effects.  I am about to see a phycopharmacologist to help with all the meds I take and to finally diagnose my problem.  Some doctors say bi polar, some say depression - I dont care what they call it just help please as not being well is wearing me down.  I have been seeing doctors since I was 17 years old and have had some good years in between.  I took care of my two sons totally alone since they were 7 and 2 (now 26 and 21) but used pills, drugs, alcohol to help. Was in therapy and taking anti-depressants non stop since 25 years old. 

I would love to hear from anyone who can relate to my experiences in any way.  Help!!!