we're trying to figure out why. I think if I had a really good cry, I would feel so much better, almost like a release of emotions. I have a hard time showing any emotion. During therapy, I get tears in my eyes but somehow I turn them off. I really don't mean to, but as therapist says, I have a huge wall built up and it's hard to bring it down. Thinking of something sad, such as death of mother or sister, will bring tears, but I really think a good sobbing cry may help me, but I just can't seem to do it. Even went to my sister's grave, talked to her cried a little bit, but didn't feel any better. I do have depression and anxiety and Dr. and therapist believe depression started in childhood and I'm now 54, never had abuse as a child, but even my parents never showed us emotion, or very little if any. No wonder it's so hard for me to hug my father now. Any help?