i have suffer from depression since i was 9 years old i was diffrent and felt some was wrong with me but relized later hat it was the others around me who inflicted there pain on me i wished i was never born has a child because a hug and kiss was more important to me then food and clothes .
i try to run away from it all but relized there was a big problem with the peole in the world i saw saddness, hatetred ,selfishnes and everything that was negitive my perants explained that you still have to get on with things and to stop worring about things you can not change, you care to much for people and its not healthy it will make you sick or mad and it did so i went on to study care '
which i felt much better for a while untill i got to emtional in my work and had my own famliy. i have had 4 brackdown in the past and i am only 30 'becuase i can not deal with sickness, ilness ,disease and evil people.
i have been on 5 diffrent anti epression tablets one of them made me feel suicidal so i have not takinking any for 9 months i have two childre ages2 and 11 years and my biggest fear that my children will go throuh what there mum, gran, great gran or great great gran are still going throuh i do not think medication and religon the answer it just changes a persons identity and personalilty has every brain is really difreent help my heads hurting the was thing in life is to be alone




