Hi again
I am so sorry you are going through this. It is so difficult to have depression and feel so alone. Are you getting any help from a therapist or counselor. That could be a good place to start. You could call your local mental health agency to see if they have any support groups to join.
Here is the NAMI website and there you can find links to local support agencies. I think you will feel a whole lot better if you can get hooked up with a group meeting of some sort.
Keep writing here and reaching out. We are here for you.