Hi there, I hope to hear from you. I really do. I don't even know how I found this site. I have lost all of my loved ones too and I have my husband too, but am so, so lonely and all alone in the world. I feel the same and I have a terror of death all of the time. I have PTSD. I lost my mother and sister in very tragic, bizarre ways and then my father when he was older. My mother and sister were each only 46 when they died. I wish I could hook up with you on the internet and talk. I'm at mozart8181@comcast.net