im a 17 year old high school student that is constantly alone. besides my little brother, i dont have really anyone i trust. i get invited to do things with people but i always come up with some excuse or another. and then when i lie awake in bed at night, thinking what a pathetic waste of life i am, and how pathetic it is that i really have no one that truly cares about me, it just makes me sick to my stomach. why am i so inadequate?
Konrad, you may have depression, which makes you think so negatively about yourself. Do you have a school counselor you could talk to? Maybe he/she could suggest a doctor or a therapist you could see and maybe you even need medication. Adolescence is a tough time of life, I know, and it's worse if you're depressed on top of it. Can you talk to your parents at all?
I hope you will reach out for help - writing here was a good start and there are lots of people here who would support you. But this site is no substitute for face-to-face help. I hope you'll think about it, anyway. And please write again and let us know how you're doing.