Well I found good food like healthy stuff lots of veggies and some good exersize like swimming makes me feel better

Poetgirl:  There is NOTHING more normal than wanting to try to handle depression without drugs.  Absolutely, completely normal!

But the fact that you know you've been wrestling this for over a year means that you should get some guidance from a medical professional -- even get a couple of opinions.  It is possible much of this you can handle, but a real doctor can help you assess what is going to help you most.

We all hate the idea of taking drugs -- but think of them NOT as a cure, NOT a reliance, NOT weakness, but as a remarkable support to give you greater clarity, strength to "do it yourself."  Would you hesitate to use crutches for a while if you hurt your leg in sports?  Well controlled with a doctor you can trust, you might find you don't need meds.  But you might also discover something that really can help you.

But you, me, our folks -- none of us can answer this as well as you talking with a good doctor!

Hi poetgirl,

Same thing here, fighting depression without drugs for a year now. I've done everything on the books, suplements, exercise, new hobbies, keeping busy, healthy eating, omega, counseling, etc. I did improve greatly but was never back to my old self. Now I have a new personal problem that has thrown me back to square one. I do not longer have the strenght to fight this alone and I do not want to have another exhausting and draining year. I've been trying to avoid drugs at all cost because it feels a bit like a defeat...however I am now ready to try plan B. Starting Celexa tomorrow for 6 months. I am commited to defeat this monster and I am now bringing the heavy weapons. Drugs are just an additional resource, you fight the battle. Do not be afraid, there is nothing wrong with getting "help" to fight it. Medication is just an additional resource. You are still in control.

All the best!