Hi poetgirl,
Same thing here, fighting depression without drugs for a year now. I've done everything on the books, suplements, exercise, new hobbies, keeping busy, healthy eating, omega, counseling, etc. I did improve greatly but was never back to my old self. Now I have a new personal problem that has thrown me back to square one. I do not longer have the strenght to fight this alone and I do not want to have another exhausting and draining year. I've been trying to avoid drugs at all cost because it feels a bit like a defeat...however I am now ready to try plan B. Starting Celexa tomorrow for 6 months. I am commited to defeat this monster and I am now bringing the heavy weapons. Drugs are just an additional resource, you fight the battle. Do not be afraid, there is nothing wrong with getting "help" to fight it. Medication is just an additional resource. You are still in control.
All the best!