Thursday, July 31, 2008 Rizwan asks

Q: Depression

Assalam-O-Alaikum! My name is Rizwan Qadir, 22 years old. My problem is this I am suffering from depression from last six years. My treatment is continuing since last Three years. But still I feel I don't have any prominent improvement. I am feeling the symptoms of depression very significantly. I feel extreme hopelessness, helplessness and worthlessness. My mood is very depressed, mostly remains sadness, very anger and irritable. I feel boredom all the time. I have no interest in anything. My motivation level has very decreased. My sleep cycle is also very disturbed. My appetite and weight has increased. I have become emotionless and senseless. I feel extreme restlessness all the day, which keeps me anxious. I feel I have no ability. I have no decision power. I think very negatively. I am socially dependent to others in every matter. I think every thing is bad I cannot live life. I feel I have destroyed my life. Everything seems impossible. I am living existless life. It likes I cannot regain my happiness and good time. I am totally isolated. I have no confidence and courage to take steps. My stress level is very high and pain has become unbearable. I feel physically tiredness and my reflexes and movement is also slow. My stomach often remains upset .I have strong desire to suicide because I think there is nothing is left in life and I can do nothing. I cannot be well. I have many problems due to that I have started to think if you will more you will lose your and family time. You are burden on yourself that's why I am thinking severely about suicide. I have tried many suicide attempts perhaps 13 but unfortunately survived. I don't look to run life in great manner.

Seven months ago I remained admitted in psychiatric hospital twice and was diagnosed with 1.Mono Symptomatic Hypochondriacal Delusional Disorder 2. Body Dysmorphic Disorder 3.Major depressive disorder 4. Social Anxiety and 5. Personality Disorder. I have also stammering.

I have consulted many psychiatrists in Faisalabad and Lahore. I have used all the antidepressants available in Pakistan like Clomfranil, Hydergine, Fluvoxamine, Bromazepam, Fluoxetine, Efexor XR, Mirtazepine, Stelazine, Kempro, Fluanxol, Escitalopram, Amitriptyline, Paroxetine Tofranil, Epitab XR, Remeron, Clonazepam, Sertraline, Bupropion, Citalopram Zolpidem, Prothiaden, Alprazolam, Lorazepam, Olanzapine, Risperidone, Zestril Kemadrin, Fluoxetine, Lantanon, Prozac, Aripiprazole, Amlodipine

ECT has been performed ten times. Psychotherapy is also continuing. But no improvement seen. So now hope has disappeared.

Please give me suggestion. I am in severe pain I don't want to destroy my life. please help me.

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Another question is this that I have very weak memory and poor concentration. My stamina is very short. My mental strength has decreased very much. My mental pace and sharpness has become very less. I am absentminded. I cannot think clearly. I have no creativity. I have to face great difficulties to communicate and talk others. Due to these cognitive symptoms my education is discontinue since last three years. May be these problems are due to depression. But my depression is not going away, but I have to resume my study. Please do medication to solve this problem. This is the matter of my future and life. Please remember due to this problem I have committed many suicide attempts in past. Because I tried to study but due to poor concentration, weak memory and short stamina could not do so.

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Answers (2)

onedot

7/31/08 8:08pm

wow, you are really bad shape for someone so young. i am no dr. but i too suffer from severe depression. what i wonder is what happened to you six years ago? how did you behave before you became depressed? the very nature of depression is everything you have described. these are the symtoms of the disease. you must recognise that you have an illness and then you must try to find the best treatment for you. i know that being depressed is like being in a giant black hole that you can not clkimb out of. i think the first step is to look up and see if there is a little light up there. the problem with this disease is that others do not understand why we despair. they do not understand why we can not just get on with our lives, just like they do. the problem is we can not explain it to them. so we must be very strong and try to be as well as we can be and treat this as the disease it is. you need to continue to look for the right meds, the right drs. and the right environment for yourself. do you have support from your family? i don't know how they treat mental illness in your part of the world. but understanding people are very important. even if they don't really understand the illness they know you need help. when i feel i don't want to do something then i talk to myself. i need to know must this be done or can it wait until i am in the right frame of mind. it is not a crime for you not to carry on as you did before. you must recognise your own self worth, even if you are sick. there are no easy answers. but i am sure if you take the time to set down and try to list the things you want to live for you will be surprised at what you find. even if it is just a good friend who will listen to you when you need to talk. you are important to someone over there. you must remember that, and you are important to all of us who suffer your fate. god bless onedot

ajrc

8/21/08 8:59pm

Asalaam u alaikum brother, I can really understand what you are going through. The best suggestion that I can make in addition to what you are doing with medicines, and therapy etc. is to start getting closer to Allah. Try to be regular with your prayers, even if it's hard to concentrate, or you feel hopeless. Allah does hear you, and he can answer your dua, and help you. Allah gave us medicines, and doctors, we should use them, but who understands you better than any one?... Allah does. If you can, try to get close to other brothers who are good, in their deen, and have them help you. I know there is alot of stigma associated with mental illness in many countries, but mental illness is a reality, we do have to deal with it, take meds for it, and try to get help, but having brothers, around you that care, and can help you islamically can be really beneficial for you. inshaallah I pray to Allah to heal you, show you the best path, and make you strong in your deen. Asalaam u alaikum.

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