Thank you so much for your words. =)   It's has been 2 months. In the end of Sept, I felt there was something wrong with him. Sometimes I called, he was impatient and said he was always sleeping. I didn't quite understand it. The second day of Oct, I said that we need to talk. He burst into tears and said" I am having doubts". I was in a shock. He said he didn't go to classes those days. (We are still in university) Basiclly, he satyed in his room watching movie or sleeping. He said he got lost and he couldn't think about anything. I went there to visit him.(3 hours by airplane) He seemed happy when he got me in the airport. We talked and didn't resolve anything. He said he wanted time and space.   When I came back, I satrted to doubt everything. Like you guys said, sometimes I am really afraid of being a fool. There are many times I told myself, maybe what he wanted is just not me. We are too far away from each other. Maybe he do need someone to be there by his side. I taled this with him. He said there is one girl going after him. She is nice and funny. He can not say he has no interests but he doesn;t want anything from her.  But after he told me this, I got even angrier. I started to think that everything he told me before was not true.  He said if he breaks up with me, he is not gonna be with no one.   This kind of conversation kept going for like 50 days. We were always talking the same things. He said he understand how my situation but he wouldn't repeat his answers again. He said that I kept asking him about that girl, looks like i want to make sure that he cheated so I could end this relationship easily. Maybe subconciously, I did think that way. I don't know.   The second time when I went there, I felt him even futher from me. But we tried to have some good time. He held my hand through a movie time in the cinema and told me that he loves me on the street. Before I left, he even told me that he was gonna try for us, he would try to get better.    But two days later, when I asked him " are you better" "why you told me those things", he got impatient again. I screwed it. He went  back to the begining. =( The same conversation started to repeat again. He just said that he is not in a balance. He wanted to stop and run away to somewhere, alone and think about his life. He also didn't understand what happened to him.   In the end of Nov, I said him a letter to tell him that I was also not ok. Maybe even worse than him. I couldn;t fall asleep, lost appetite and feeling everything hopeless. I called him then to say "you are free now". He cried and refused to talk to me.   The second day we broke up. He said that his family told him if he continue, I would start to hate him and we would lose all the chances in the future. So he agreed.   We are friens now. I try not to contact him as before and everytime we talk, i try to wear a brave face and make joke with him.It's really hard to be friends when all I want is to be his "the one" like before.   SOme days ago he told me that he feels like a failure and not confident anymore. He felt like he has no future and can not do anything. I thought about all these reasons. It was the first time he talked about it by himself. He started to realize what was going on in his head. Maybe it;s even a good thing for him.   Last weekedn, I was mad at him for being late for four hours for skype. He told me that he started to do some exercise and go to classes everyday. He is getting better and he still wants to be more than friends in the future. Then I apologize for being mad and said that we should keep things easy and happy.   I am also getting better. I am still holding the hope that we can start over. I got a lot of help from you girls' words. Thank you so much!