i'm on anitdepressents and i'm 17 i'm having a really bad patch at the moment i don't want to leave my home to go to collage i just want to stay at home. and im not sleeping and when i do i have really bad dreams. i havn't sleepped in like months and its realy getting me down. i want to do to collage its just im scared to leave the house because of what happend to me in my past. but when im at collage i have a fear of coming home again because of what's happend to me. i really don't what to let any one down but i feel as if i am. and i just want to know what happens to you when u are depressed, jenny
Well I am thinking that you are not alone in your feelings. Going away to college is a big deal! It is a major life transistion and a lot of people feel anxious over it.
From what you have written, it sounds like you are more anxious and fearful than depressed. But this is something that a professional therapist should evaluate. Can you talk to your therapist about your symptoms?
It also sounds like there are some unresolved issues from your past to deal with. Can you talk about these issues with either your parents or your therapist?
What would make things easier for you to make this transition from home to college as well as visits home?
For the time being...getting a restful sleep sounds imperative. I would tackle this issue for the short term and then try to get to the root of your fears for the long term.
I hope things get better for you soon. Thank you for your question.
Search the Internet for "depression". Also search this website. It has some excellent discussions of symptoms, feelings, thoughts, emotions, and behaviors associated with depression.
Also please try to get some professional help. Some public and private organizations provide free counseling. Ask your high school counselor, look in the yellow pages, search for services in your area on the Internet, search this web site, find someone you trust and respect that you can talk to about this. Just talking is ofter very helpful and will make you feel much better.
Depression is a real illness, and is nothing to be ashamed of. It is just as real an illness as cancer, heart disease, diabetes, etc. Many types of effective therapy are available.
Remember that there is hope and that depression can be defeated and you can be happy and assured, not confused and miserable. IT IS POSSIBLE!!!!
I suffer from depression and believe that I understand much of what you are going through. Depression is not your fault. It does not mean that you are crazy. Please take the first step toward getting help. You cannot heal yourself, but great help is available.