Search the Internet for "depression". Also search this website. It has some excellent discussions of symptoms, feelings, thoughts, emotions, and behaviors associated with depression.

Also please try to get some professional help. Some public and private organizations provide free counseling. Ask your high school counselor, look in the yellow pages, search for services in your area on the Internet, search this web site, find someone you trust and respect that you can talk to about this. Just talking is ofter very helpful and will make you feel much better.

Depression is a real illness, and is nothing to be ashamed of. It is just as real an illness as cancer, heart disease, diabetes, etc. Many types of effective therapy are available.

Remember that there is hope and that depression can be defeated and you can be happy and assured, not confused and miserable. IT IS POSSIBLE!!!!

I suffer from depression and believe that I understand much of what you are going through. Depression is not your fault. It does not mean that you are crazy. Please take the first step toward getting help. You cannot heal yourself, but great help is available.

Mike