Despite all the meds, counseling, does one ever get cured from depression?

I have suffered mild forms of depression I believe my whole lif. I grew up in an abusive home filledd with other mentally illpeople. I survived as a child thanks to the local library. Lately though, I guess due to a physiccal condition that causes chronic pain and keeps me pretty sedentary, the depression has turned into a major depressiveepisode that just won't end. People would never believe the tragic situations that just keep heaping themselves on top of me. Itslike a horrormovie that just doesn't end. I've never been a vervous person but freak out everytime the phone rings, the door bell rings. Bad crap just keeps happening and these situationsarecompletely out of control. I hate to keep leaning on xanax for every crisis but if I don'tiptit turns into a full blown panic attack. Do peopleeverreally recover or this along with this god awful pain just going to be my way of life forever. I do see a counselor because I just don't know what to do with myselg=f. I was such an outdorr type person and she suggests that I need to fiind aother hobbies like reading, needlework, etc.Nothing will ever compete with hiking in the woods, paddling down a river,water skiing. Can anyone imagine giving their whole life only to become a knitter??? Peopleare so much worse than I that I knowbut doesn't that make you even more depressedbecause you feel like such a whiner. I would never consider harming myself but you got to wonder if this is all there is to life, whast's the point?