Where to begin! I think I must have started with my depression back in the spring. And now in the fall, it has been the worst I can remember. I also had it a few years ago, but this is really bad this time. I am not making smart decisions. I'm treating ever day as if it's my last, so who cares. I had a small affair that just busted up and annoyingly that bothers me (I know how bad that sounds). I also know how bad it sounds for me to say there is nothing wrong with my husband, because there isn't. I am just unhappy. My only job is raising our 2 kids. Sure this is a proud job, but it's no unique and most parents do it. Besides that and the housework I ignore, I do nothing. I have no attention span for movies, reading, magazine, making and sipping tea or cooking/baking. I have been able to shut down almost every think productive that I'm capapable of doing. I don't think it matters. Would a drug that's not as SSI be something that could lighten some of this up?






The trigger usually has something to do with one of my children. One is Autistic and one is developmentally delayed. So some days can be a bit much. I don't mind taking medication, but I am not sure I feel like dealing with the side effects. That can be taxing too.