I have been going thru anxiety and depression right now. I know they both can go hand in hand and some days it seems like I am battling the anxiety more and other days the depression more. I just feel so disconnected from myself. Does any one else have this feeling or had it before? It feels like I don't even know who I was before this started. Will I get to the point where I feel like myself again. I think this is the scariest part for me.
Yes, absolutely! I've been going through a lot of depression and anxiety for the past three months. I have good days and terrible days, and throughout most of it, I also feel very disconnected from myself. I sometimes feel like I'm outside of myself, or something. When I hear myself speak I think, "Is that my voice?" I remember having this before, but it has been constant for the past few months. I saw my psychologist the other day and she seemed puzzled when I reported this disconnected feeling, even though I know for a fact that other people suffer from it. It's so disheartening when a professional of this sort doesn't understand you!
But yes, I guess what I'm saying is that it is real, it is part of depression and it does go away. Are you taking any medications right now? I've been on Effexor for awhile but I don't think it's working so my doctor is switching me to Paxil as of today.
If you're feeling like you could shatter into a million pieces, then yes. I have been having that feeling all day today - and for no reason I can put my finger on. What I do know is that (at least from my experience) it passes. Contact and support of friends and family does help, but only to a certain extent. Hang in there...it will pass for you too. Know that. Believe that.
You are not alone in this.