Brenda, can you talk to us a little more about this?  I'm not sure what you're asking.  Are you worried about the effects of the four anti-depressants you are on?  Are you having some bad side effects from them?  If this is the case, you need to tell your doctor what's going on.

Are you feeling suicidal?  You mention that you keep getting hurt a lot and can't take it any more.  What is going on in your life right now that keeps hurting you?  I can give you some crisis numbers to call if you are feeling like hurting yourself, but I'm not sure that's what you're saying.  This site isn't managed around the clock, so I'm concerned that you're needing someone to talk to and you may not get a response here as quickly as you need one.

I hope you'll write some more to help me understand a little better what's going on.  We'll help however we can.