I DONT WANT TO BE DEPRESSED. I KEEP THINKING," AM I GETTING SOMETHING OUT OF THIS"? ALL I WANT TO DO IS SLEEP EVEN THOUGH I TRULY WISH TO DO THINGS. I FEEL WEAK, LIKE MY LEGS ARE LIKE JELLY. I CAN HARDLY FUNCTION WHEN THIS HITS. I FEEL IT IS MY FAULT, AND THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT HAVE IT SO MUCH WORSE, THAT I HAVE NO RIGHT TO GIVE IN TO THIS FEELING. I TAKE CARE OF MY 97YR.OLD FATHER,,WHO HAD A STROKE GOING ON THREE YEARS AGO. I WENT THROUGH A DIVORCE,MOVING,DEATH OF MOTHER,FATHER HAVING A STROKE AND THEN I HAD A HEART-ATTACK. IT WOULD BE EASY TO BLAME THESE THINGS, BUT I HAVE DEALT WITH DEPRESSION FOR OVER 25 YEARS AND I CAN'T SEE WHY I CAN'T MAKE THIS GO AWAY WHEN I RECOGNIZE ALL IT DOES IS SET ME BACK.






