I have suffered from depression for a long time.  It has not rared its ugly head full force for about 9 years so I tend to forget about it from time to time untill I have a down day.  I usually could bring myself out of those by focusing on the kids etc.  I'm a single mom of 4.  I am currently in a relationship with a good but hard headed man, have been for 8 months.  Today I had the big meltdown.  When I called him i couldn't even explain to him what was wrong cause I really didn't know.  I felt I had lost control of everything.  It ended up scaring him to death, but instead of it turning to concern, he is now pulling back because he doesn't "know how to take it".  It was a lot for him to take in i'm sure heck it scared me, but I got back on my medication and later tried to explain some of it to him.  He said he still loved me, but my fear is Will he get past it?  How do I help him understand something i'm not sure how to explain right now?  And because this is all new to him and it happened so fast and at a large scale should I just give it a few days to sink in?  I don't want to lose him especially right now.